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2 In-class Simulations
3 Final Exams

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"We have got to stop thinking of all our nefarious plans out loud and within earshot of others. When will we learn?!?" .mytrafficnews.

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From Santoine de St.-Exupery as quoted in Wisdom of the Lotus Sutra Vol 1: p4. "We have to understand that somewhwere along the wea way have take the wrong road. Humanity as a whole is richer than ever before. We enjoy unsurpassed affluence and leaisure time. Yet something more basic, something indefineable, is lacking. The sensation of ourselves as human beings becomes gradually more and more rare. We ahve lost something that was one of ourmysterious prerogatives."

The fog.

The night's fog outside is a reflection of my mind. I cannot see clearly what's inside the door that's illuminated on the other side of the hill, I just know that the door is there. I cann't see but the lights and my path is still unclear. My mind has confused me and I still don't know where. I. am.The fog tonight is strange, perhaps reflecting how i'm feeling, it looks to me like a mix of purple and blue. Purple for you know what and blue for how I feel. I'm just frustrated with life. I can't wait to Friday night and then Saturday morning. I see bodies dancing with the lights around the circle of trees, knowing they're soka student still awake as I go to sleep for some reason is comforting.I've forgotten my poetic side, I wish I knew where it went. I'm glad I realized that it's not been around. I wonder if I'll be able to cultivate it once again. My mind and my heart are in two distant countries and I lie here, in California, searching for the moon through the marine layer.I see, I hear, I feel, for the first time in a while. That last three months has whooshed by and I haven't even noticed that my world has gotten smaller, more brutish, and hellish. I can honestly say that tonight I was in the world of hell. I don't want to be there again. I've come to far in my oh so few 20 years of life to want to encourage this kind of behaviour. My body twiches and burns when I make the determination to be strong, to be courageous.Courage is the word that struck me today. I wonder how this shall play out in my life. I need to find something more and more and more and more. I know what I say; but I can't know if I'm communicating it to you. "To whom?" you ask. I don't respond. I can't say because if I say it you may see through to me, on the inside."I know everything you want, I know everything you need, I know everything inside of you that you wish you could be. I say all the right things, at exactly the right time, but I mean nothing to you and I don't know why."I must become a positive influence on my world. I must be confident in that I can create change, and even more that I can create positive change in my world.I have forgotten my humanity and I reclaim it tonight. Focus andy focus!

Some Laughs for y'all back in the FTC

VISITORS GUIDE TO FORT COLLINS

1. All directions start with "Get on College Avenue"...which has no beginning and no end.
2. The Chamber of Commerce calls getting through traffic a "scenic drive".
3. The morning rush hour is from 5am to 11am. The lunch rush hour is from 11am to 2pm. The evening rush hour is from 2pm to 10pm. Friday's rush hour traffic begins Thursday morning.
4. If you actually stop at a yellow light, you will be rear-ended, cussed out, and possibly shot. When you are the first one on the starting line, count to five when the light turns green before going, to avoid getting into any cross traffic's way.
5. Everyone complains about those reckless speeders, but if someone gets caught speeding by photo-radar, the ticket isn't "valid".
6. Construction downtown is a way of life and permanent form of entertainment provided by the Downtown Business Association.
7. Cache La Poudre can only be pronounced by a native.
8. Whenever the word Horsetooth is mentioned, people laugh, boaters and fisherman cry.
9. The minimum acceptable speed on I-25 north between Wyoming state line and Wellington is 115mph. Anything else is downright sissy.
10. If you are in the left hand lane and only going 75 in a 55mph zone, people are NOT waving when they go by.
11. Prospect Road going east is our daily version of NASCAR, with a perpetual caution flag.
12. If it is 100 degrees outside, Thanksgiving must be next weekend.
13. Bellevue is actually hard to give directions for, but you don't want to go there anyway.
14. Anyone within 20 miles of Ft. Collins on the day of a CSU home game is certifiably crazy. (Although city traffic during the game is quite enjoyable)
15. I AM STILL WAITING FOR IT TO SNOW WITHIN CITY LIMITS!
    P.S. And Thank God it's not Boulder

Family Indigestion: It's from cans!

Hey Y'all,

So a short blog today.

MW was feeling crappy at the SR last night. It makes me wonder where we all will be, and how we all will be in 5, 10, 15, 25, 50 years. I wonder who will be around to see the next turn of the century, will we all or will only a few, or perhaps even none. Back to her: she's in a wheelchair right now because she's got knees like a 90-year-old woman. (I get to know someone ELSE who's got a 90-year-old's body). Maybe I should shut-up about this as well. I get the feeling that I can be really bitchy if I don't watch it.

I really want to see what I can do for all the members in my district, for all those who I care about around me and all those who support me from far away. I miss all of you guys and think about y'all a lot.

I also had my first shift of work, it wasn't that bad. It's really easy to get into the swing of things. It's not that bad otherwise.

Here's a cool link: Family Indigestion: It's from cans!

I hope you guys are having a good week; gotta be better than mine: i have the newspaper, 2 mid-terms today, a 1000-word paper due tomorrow by 13h00, and then I'm free(r).

Besitos!

Today has been, bright and sunny

I woke up to sunshine this morning. It is bright, sunny, amazingly clear after the last few days of rain we've been having. I feel like I'm at home, it's actually RAINING. None of this 'lluvazo' stuff (Spanish/Castellano for the type of rain only people who are stupid get wet in...you know that stuff where it's like sprinkling/misting but just enough that you'll get a bit wet running between buildings.) that usually likes to rain in California. Even today there was a sun shower (when it rains while the sun is still shining); it makes it feel even morelike home. Aiiiiiii--very nostalgic.

If y'all can find it: here's a cool song: E talking by Soulwax. British electronic-rock [brit-e-rok almost sounds like "pretty rock"]. gotta love it.

The Spirit Rally was fun, `06 got 3rd place, tied with the Seniors. I have 2 exams tomorrow and 120 pages to read from now until 12am. I hope to finish really really fast. These exams may kill me.

I have no voice left from the Spirit Rally, but that's fine.

I think I need to get some relief from this rainy weather. It was windy and breezy today and it rained on and off.

Other than that, just another normal day in the Soka Bubble.

So maybe

Maybe, I've found some good gay guys to hang out with: DT and JR. Gossipping and talking about a scary movie we saw this night. It was fun. Anyways, I'm dead, I shouldn't be up at 5am writing a blog. See you in a few hours!

Swimming

Is so fun. However, going to competitions makes you have a VERY skewed sense of what a male's or female's body should look like. I saw hard cut ripped bodies all weekend and i think i have a very skewed view of male bodies right now. Not that i don't mind the guy-candy...but still it's deflating to self-esteem when you don't have that lean of a body to start with.

Anyways, i don't have much to report. I'm trying to get back on track with homework and everything after having 3 days of competitions. I hope I can get back on track. Phew!

/andy/

Went on a date

And I am not really convinced still. Just a coffee-walk date.

Am I leading someone on? I guess that's the question. I'm so unsure. And because of that, I assume the worst. Is it not possible to assume the best?

I can feel the fundamental darkness coming out. I must fight. I'm chanting from now to 23h00.

From the MyTrafficNews e-mail

Valentine's Day

Here it is, the day on which a man's worth as a suitable mate is harshly tested. So, gentlemen, begin your panic....NOW!

The Golden Library has an idea to save you some money: buy a dozen used romance novels for a dollar. The romance novels will last longer than roses, and like roses they are basically identical:

Act 1: Heroine (farmgirl, business woman, young lady of court) leads trapped existence, and meets Dangerous Hero (blacksmith, unconventional young gun, roguish knave). Father/Fiance/The Pope disapproves.

Act 2: The two are forced together by a crisis (freak storm, freak business presentation, freak French revolution), where they consummate their love, often graphically.

Act 3: They are forced apart by The Difference In Their Lives (a blacksmith won't ask for directions, the young gun did 6 months in a Tijuana jail, the roguish knave eats mayonnaise right out of the jar).

Act 4: The Heroine discovers The Hero's Secret Life. (The Blacksmith is actually governor of Pennsylvania, the young gun bought Cisco stock in 1994, the roguish knave invented Kleenex.) And they live happily ever after.

By our obvious skill, you can tell we've written a few romance novels: Look for us under our nom de plume: "Persephone Gaithlessbraithewait."

(By the way, if you are actually thinking of getting used books instead of flowers, we have this tip for you: There's a singles-support group that meets in the lobby of the MyTrafficNews rec center every Thursday. You might want to pencil that in.)

Another helpful tip for the guys: Tonight's basketball game with the CU Men facing the South Dakota State Jackrabbits at 7 p.m. is not an acceptable Valentine's Day outing. It's like the old poem says, Roses Are Red; Violets are blue; Take me to a non-conference game; And that will be it for you!

The Cap'n's Unfortunate Valentine's Cards

Oh yes, the unfortunate Valentine's Day Cards!

I dunno!

Does this guy even think that he likes me back? I guess that's the big question now. Perhaps.

In other news, I got to be child-like for Ellie's photo project. I hope that the pictures turnout: i realized that the light wasn't great so I hope the contrast is good on the photos she got.

Today i had two SGI meetings - no1 with bryson and no2 the 100-day campaign kickoff meeting. The first one with bryson was good: we set goals and set a time-limit. The second was quite good as well: though I don't know how 'sustainable' this effort is going to be, but that's what it seems that the OC Region leaders are trying to create with this campaign.

I aslo talked with my bro, the 3rd one. It seems like he's having problems with K. She's being difficult, just talking to him and the like. I hope that I can find someone that can help him shakubuku her or something, at least be there for support.

It's been a pretty eventful day: i feel like i've done a lot, but I guess the question is whether all those things I've done have propelled me to victory. I did just take like a 45 minute 'break' which included a nap and a diversion from homework. I must put HW back into one of my priorities.

Only I can determine what my victory is day-by-day and only I can decide if I've achieved that.

You gotta tell people it's a door stop (as she picks up a door stop).
-Some people think its a toe

Oh my god! It's a TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOE!

I'm not dead

Contrary to reports of my demise. It is not true. they were only half-true.

/con carinyo/ andy.