life less excitng

i'm looking forward to goin home for new year's. I didn't think I'd say that a few days ago. I'm ready for a break from work, to visit friends and family back in Colorado. More than anything else I think I'm ready to just be away from work; focus on what I want to get out of the next year and be away from California. Not escaping it, cuz I know that never works, but just to be away and able to get some perspective on the things I'm doing.

Maybe the days I have here are great for perspective, well...getting somewhat of a perspective. On the other hand, I'm ready to get a view of my life that's not in my normal zone.

I hope that this New Year's, I will make goals and set determinations in place that will propel my life forward, very far forward.

Yesterday was fun! I thouroughly was tired from the shopping trip that was yesterday. Beverly Center, LaRouche PAC, La Cienaga, Santa Monica (Boystown) Strip, PDC, Melrose and back to Beverly. It was a long day, but I enjoyed the walking quite a bit. Got a good sweater at H&M, got a gift for Kwan, enjoyed the company, laft a good chunk, ate a good small chunk of delicious dessert. Way too much goodness.

I'm trying this self-confidence thing.

Yuki is quite a character: 'Fatass is like a term of endearment.'

Live from Mitsue's

I'm feeling okay. Kinda like shit, kinda like okay.

I'm *just* tired

Flat out tired. There's not much else I can say. It's been the longest 3-day week I've ever had...I think.

Saturday was the beginning of it all: *someone*--one of the students--clicked on a link they got in MSN messenger which was some majorly bad code. It dispached code which started attacking Norton A/V. In more understandable terms, think of it like Hiv/Aids. It attacks the immune system and then other, usually harmless, or quickly taken care of, viruses attack the system bringing the immune system and the body to a dead halt. In terms of computing, this 'click' is like not wearing a condom--open to all sorts of virii. Hence, I've spent the past few days dealing with all this. I'm posting from work, btw.

I'm tired. zzzz -_-!

Gaffes

You'll only get it if you take chinese..."women you lots of virus infections"

Ever feel like a child

I still have days when I wonder what the heck I'm doing...I still feel like a child; well in that bewildered way. I try to be oblivious; perhaps I'm not cynical enough, or maybe I'm too cynical. But I just feel ... bewildered.

There's an article in the World Tribune of a few weeks back...the guy giving the experience says something like There's a part of me that accepted that I could live my life fully in every other aspect but a relationship; the rest of me wanted a relationship. I think my sentiments couldn't be better expressed. I want a relationship! I also want lunch.

I haven't laughed so hard that it hurt my abs to laugh more, in oh so long. I want to laugh, like I really mean it.

It is a blue day; though today it's sunny, I just don't want to shine like it is outside.

Best diana quotes ever

Best Diana Quotes ever:

Only one so far:

"I need to change my diapers."

Reflections

Reflections:

Reading my first blogs from Froshmen year, I don't know whether I was just more honest at that point to my feelings or that now I've grown up a bit. Looking back, it seems all like a dream and I'm kinda happy that I've gone the path that I've gone on. I'm still dealing with a lot of the same issues, different facets of the same thing, or different aspects of it that I didn't ever meet back then, but I'm on my path. I'm still shy and quiet when it comes to matters of the heart, but I'm being more honest to myself--even if with others it's in denial.

I absolutely want to follow my mentor and hero...determination.

I want to enjoy my life but I also want to follow my dreams and my goals. I wnat to find someone who will understand that. Are there people who do understand that?

Sadness and determination.

Estuve en el WeHo

This has been a long, fun-filled week.

I'm enjoying just going out. I'm enjoying doing the things that I thought all people on the Coast did. (Which isn't true...not everyone goes out mid-week to party). I enjoyed myself for the first time in a while.

I want to do more than enjoy--I will get there, no doubt.

So, last Sunday, we had sukiyaki--David, Eric, Mitsue, Lisa, Brian and I. A small lil' family affair. Definitely good food, good company. Brosefs, Lisa, and Mitsue all leave after eating, Brian and I hang out for a while afterwards. Make plans to go up to WeHo for Halloween Carneval.

Tuesday comes--it was a blast!


I had so much fun--good drinks [not stiff enough...boo!] (didn't like the price, but hey! whatever), lots of people, an atmosphere that I haven't been around in so long. I was somewhat uncomfortable with the crush of people, but realized I got through bigger crowds during La Merce' and then got over it. We met at Erwin's (volleyball friend of Brian's) and took the bus down to Beverly Center. Walked LaCienaga to Boystown, and it started from there on down to Doheny (A block after Robertson). It was amazing to look down the hill and see that many people!--I don't think the promoters were wrong in saying 500.000 people would come out that night. It reminded me so much of LaMerce'. After walking the strip, try to go to Abbey--line's too long; think about doing bottellon with drinks from Pavillion's but unfortunately, line's too long. Decide to go to Rage--$15 cover. Night gets better from there! Recipe for success: mix alcohol, decent music, some MySpace/Gay.com drama-rama, dishing on 'costumes' and boys. Finish the clubbing/drinking/dancing, eat some awesome (though $4) brats/dogs and end with a walk with Alan et Mike (6 degrees'-ing it: Me-(soka)-Brian-(volleyball)-Erwin-(flip friends)-Alan-(roommate)-Mike). Nice to meet someone new everytime I go somewhere with Brian.

I was so appreciative of not having to drive back. I would've passed out!

Patience is key. I have it, some don't.

OMG!

Really enjoying this song right now!