I can't say if i'm feeling happy right now

I've come to feel like I've lost something in the last eight months I've been in the States. There was something about being able to make it in a foreign country, make friends, attend SGI activites, get along without looking like a tourist, that helped me forge an inner confidence. Slowly though, over the last months that I've been back, I am again at the point where I don't feel like I have that confidence anymore. It's part of my karma and I still have yet to challenge it and overcome it properly. At least I've recognized it for what it is though. That's a major step.