A day's work

I don't know why I'm so attracted. I don't need to be attracted. But for some reason I am. Is that what Karma is? Is that what fate is? Doesn't that mean that right now, I'm subjecting myself to these forces that sway me--I allow them to sway me? I chant. But not that much. I feel like I need to.

Tired. Tired of a lot of things. I'm tired of feeling unloved--not in the friendship way. That i know I'm very lucky--I have friends that love me and I love them back. They're there for me--I don't even doubt that. Makes me wonder for a second if I should. But, I want to feel what it means when people say they are "in love," with someone--in a manner that is more than just friends.

So today's news round-up:
-Hurricane Beta
-Zorro isn't as good a movie as thought
-Sox celebrate the first win since 1917
-India, Pakistan in talks to open Kashmiri border
-Who will be the next Bush nominee

I do too...

I'm swimming tomorrow at the Cal Baptist Relays:
-Second position/Fly 3x100
-Third Position (150)/Free 50-100-150-200
-Fourth position (A team)/IM 4x100
-Second position/Free 4x100

Ay!