Day 11

04 January 2006

“Somehow I find that you and I collide.”

I wonder where I’ve come in the past year. Somehow I find that, I don’t really know where I’ve come; Have I really made any progress I’ve made on my goals?

Linda Johnson’s advice to the OC members at New Year’s Gongyo was to make an “Impossible List,” that is a list of things that you think are impossible, and set-out to do them, chant for them, to encourage your own faith in the Gohonzon. I need to do that.

“I finally find you and I collide.”

What would be on this list?

(1) I want to develop my capacity to feel other’s feelings; I want to change the way I interact with others—to be able to make them feel at ease in my presence.
(2) I want to find a great job for after university; one where I can combine my talents with computers and languages, as well as my ability to do research.
(3) I want to support my members the best way possible—encouraging them to become leaders through my own actions—specifically the YMD of Aliso Amigos District.

“Tengo la camisa negra. Hoy mi amor esta de luto.”

(4) I will build better relationships with my brothers, my parents, and my extended family in Japan.
(5) I will climb a mountain.
(6) I will skydive.
(7) I will visit NYC.
(8) I will finish my Capstone on time and in good health.
(9) I will be the best person at work.

“It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this?”

(10) I will get my weight to be under 170 pounds (77 kg) and I will be at or under 10% body fat [I am currently 89.5kg and 21.5%.]

“De tardes negras, que no hay tiempo ni espacio y nadie nunca entendera. Quedarte, puedes? Porque la vida duele, duele demasiado aquí sin ti.”

(11) I will stay in contact with my friends from SUA—the seniors—my classmates (06ers)—my juniors (the Pirate Crew), and others from High School; wherever I go.

“What did you expect to find? Was it something you left behind?”

(12) I will go to China and India in the next 12 months.
(13) I will go to visit my friends in Europe in the next 18 months.
(14) I will have money to make these trips.

“Time to say good-bye Paesi che non ho mai…”