Updating

things left to update never get done, so here i am taking action.

things i'd like to do this summer:
*Sleep at least 7 hours a night
*Chant an hour every morning before work/activities/etc.
*Chant a half-hour every evening
*Introduce someone to this practice
*Study the gosho every day, even if it's a paragraph or two
*Strengthen my prayer for Soka Spirit
*Support the Courageous Hearts members
*Develop one capable leader for Kosen-rufu this season

Today was a day filled with leadership meetings. :-). I love my leadership teams, but I'm feeling the strain. I came home after one meeting, ate a bit, went to my bedroom for a minute, and then fell asleep in just a few minutes. I didn't even expect to, I thought I was going to be reading something. Haha.

But, it made me realize, that I need to stop pushing myself to do all these activities, and instead, focus on raising capable people who are able to fill these roles that I'm currently in.

Realized last night that for a moment, I was feeling more lonely than ever before, but at the same time, I felt it because I felt dissatisfied with life. Chanted this morning that I want to feel satisfied because this life is mine and I'm ultimately in charge of all aspects of it, so if I'm to feel dissatisfied, it's because I've let myself succumb to the thought that I *can't* change one aspect of my life or another.