Some thoughts for a wednesday

Favourite movies, huh? I dunno. I think maybe Mononoke-hime (Princess Mononoke to y'all Angloparlantes). Or Hero (??). And maybe even Amelie. I like a lot of movies, and I rarely find many that I would say more than that. These three are the favourites I have right now. I do have to say on the drama level, One Hour Photo and Crash are also high up on that list, but I don't like them as much as these three movies. Mononoke-hime because the animation is some of the best I have ever seen and the story is very good. Hero is just a good wushu movie overall and since I'm a visual persion, the colours amaze me. Amelie, I really like because of the cute story, the cute boy, and the amazing way the story is told.

I can't think much right now. The pressure has gotten to me. Argh. Em told me today that she really feels like she wants to crawl under a blanket and just stay there for a week, and then when she comes back out, everything's the same. I want that too, but I know that that won't happen.

Sometimes, I don't know why I choose to like the people I do. I just do. I fear that this non-thought-out process for making friends and other interests is perhaps not the best thing I could be doing. This is not in reference to the people I already know, but in reference to the people I may meet in the future. I guess you can't really force people to become your friends. Or maybe you can. I don't know.

Hmmm. I guess my forte is thinking. I don't know what it is about my life that allows me so much time to think, think think think!, yet still I can't get things done. I.e. Capstone at the moment. Perhaps I'm a born thinker, but only in situations that force you to think--kinda like maybe college and high school.

I wonder if I've grown since I've entered here. Can anyone tell me? I think I have, but I wonder how much. I don't always know. I don't always care to see if I have. Sometimes, I'm afraid that maybe even I haven't changed or maybe I've changed so much that I don't realize it. Either way, I'm afraid a bit to self-reflect on that point. I feel like me, but is this me the me of two years ago or have somethings changed? Is change a good thing? has it been bad?

I wonder what it is about myself that brings out the bitchiness?

What do I seek? Who can I trust to understand what I want to get? Who do I trust? Where is my wallet?

I have no money. I'm broke. I just got my paycheck and I'm already broke. Thank you loan corporation for takinga bout 173$ in loan fees. I guess it's not that bad considering how much was loaned to us--it still sucks. Speaking of which, my brothers still have to give me that money they owe me. And I still owe Lei some money.