030403 [15C @ 17.50]
Ok...so since i'm not doing anything, I'll write

I'm mental. Did you know that? I need to see shrink...or so I think. But I won't because well, I really don't believe that I do.

That's why I'm saying that I'm mental. I never feel like I do what I say. I feel that I say something and then don't act on that conviction. Is that bad? Yes. Of course. But, it's bothering me now...and has been for a while.

Why can I not do anything that I mentally say I will? Does it matter if I say it mentally to myself? I think it should or does. But, if I think it do I mean it? There are so many thoughts that go through my head every second...many of them conflicting...does that mean I mean to follow through on every thought?




No.

I guess not.

More thoughts later...it's a thinking night.