God...i feel like i bitch too often and too much. I mean I *AM* at a great university, in southern california, where i feel like i'm home and that i have great friends here. I guess that's the inner true pessimist in me. I can't help but bitch, even about bitching...ha ha ha. Sigh.

On the other hand, i guess that's what I find easiest to do. Take the armchair method and sit back and say something, but do nothing. It's so easy to be an 'intellectual' and bitch about yourself and your surroundings. In other words: it's easy to criticize. But it's a totally different thing to actually go out and change something. It may be harder, but it's better.

That means that i have to take up the attitude that i will change something "from this day onward."

Being sarcastic and critical is easy. Being sarcastic, critical, and actually doing something is a whole different world. Is that why I am here? To learn that and then to start to put that into action?

There's so many things that distract from that to...from your goals...from what you want. (Love, lust, chocolate, and homework). How will I stay focused on my goal?

Do I know where I am going?

The crowd responds with a resounding: "NO!"

Will I eventually figure out?

The crowd sits and stares back blankly and says: "Will you?"

I walk off and think...