So, I guess I should update.

I think I'm in an OK place. Much stuff could be said, but I feel that I don't have anything really worth saying. I want to have someone to talk to. But, I don't know if I can find him. I want to have someone. Lust? Yet again. I remember what happened last time, and don't want to have that kinda stuff. Drahma, drahma, drahma, all on my part. I don't want to get sucked into feelings like that.

I don't know where I'm headed...I need to get back to doing my 30 mins a day of gongyo because I feel like I'm lost. God...sometimes tis so hard to stay focused.

I need to go to bed.

I need a reset. I'll write more when I feel more stable.