April 20 will be a day that stands in infamy...

I wonder why it had to happen. I wonder why it did happen. I remember the day that it happened and that I didn't know what to feel. I still don't really know what to feel, but I remember that it was not a happy day.

As a student, you will remember days that they tell you that you can watch the television. The O.J. verdict, this, and 9/11, will all ways be days that are ingrained in my memory, because they are the days of infamy.

At this time, we had the TV on while we were in math class with Mrs. Gaines. I remember that we all were watching channel 4 and they said maybe 8 or 10 students were shot. They didn't mention that there was a teacher dying inside the school, or that 13 students, ones like us, by the end of the day were going to die.

When I got home, and turned on the TV at 4, all of a sudden that number 8-10 turned into 25 possibly 50 students killed. What do you say when you hear something like that? Students killing students? People killing people?

I have a hole in my heart because I could feel the pain that that whole school, that that city, that my state, that this country and the world was going through. Think about it. Even in India, in South Africa, in the Sudan, you're heart goes out to anyone who dies at the hands of another human being.

I sigh.

I go on living.

I just wanted to say, "I will always remember."