Well

I've turned 21. Now that I'm 21 + 1 day, it's weird to think of it that way. I don't feel much different, so I mustn't be that much different. I wish to live another 50 years and see that the world has changed, changed for the better.

Japan's leaders are lacking in sensitivity, thought, and empathy. They seriously underestimate the power that history affects others, especially their neighbors. They must remember that they have yet to reconcile with their past (instead of forgetting it). Wonder about the Komei-to, where is their voice in the Japanese Diet and House? Japan has my prayers.

My mind is preoccupied with the boy. Balance is what I need, and yet I can't find it. Must remember that anything can be a devilish function. Must not forget (either) that those same things can be a 'buddha-ish' function. Wonder what he is to me right now: enabling me to become a better person or is he distracting me from my self-betterment, my studies?

Went to bed at 2am last night, awoke at 7h30am this morning. My body isn't tired, but my brain seems to be. I have a lot of papers, etc. to write. Must be focused.