I need to do more gongyo. I need to study more of the Lotus Sutra and read from the WT and LB. I need to go to activities.

I feel like I am living without a spiritual center.

I don't know if this a new thing from the things going on in my life right now or if this is something that has been developing in my life. Maybe I feel this way because I am not feeling good about myself right now. Maybe it's just a panic response. Maybe it's this, maybe that. I just don't know.

However, I know that I, usually, feel better when I'm doing my gongyo and my daimoku. I feel the best then. And at times, that's not that happy.

Now is when I'm supposed to be building my character. However, I feel as if i don't even have a foundation to set it on.