I need to tell my parents that I'm gay.

I need to do this because I can't tell my mom how I'm _really_ feeling when I answer the phone and that hurts the most, more than anything else right now. I wish I could. But at this moment, I can't bring myself to it.

I don't know why. I know that I could stand on my own two feet if I was asked to do it. But it would hurt too much to lose people I know so well.

This is something that I know I'll have to do b4 I leave here...because I don't think I can stand being at home and not 'out' to my parents.